September 2022 week 5
I am Enough, I have Enough, All is Well!
“Opening the door to life” excerpt from Pema Chodren - Pain is a result of what’s called ego clinging, of wanting things to work out on our own terms, of wanting “me-victorious”. Ego is like a room of its own, a room with a view, with the temperature and the smells and the music that you like. You want it your own way. You’d just like a little peace; you’d like to have a little happiness, you know, just “gimme a break!” But the more you think that way, the more you try to get life to come out so that it will always suit you, the more your fear of other people and what’s outside your room grows. Rather than becoming more relaxed, you start pulling down the shades and locking the door. When you do go out you find the experience more and more unsettling and disagreeable. You become touchier, more fearful, more irritable than ever. The more you try to just get it your way, the less you feel at home. Wow, I love this!!
The Klesha of Ashmita, EGO or “I am ness” causes us such suffering and keeps our lives small! I know I have had times in my life where I have boxed myself in “a room of conditions” in the past and it makes me move from my EGO’s voice of fear, comparison, judgement etc. YUCK! What I mean is I have had times in my life when I “need” certain parts of my life to be a certain way and people in my life need to be a certain way in order for me to be “happy”. That is not happiness or joy, that is conditional, self centered I am ness.
“The difference between hope and despair is a different way of telling stories from the same facts.” Insight timer That is genius!!!!!
When we are moving from this Klesha of EGO or Edging God Out - our life is small, self reliant and fear based. When we move into the faith and trust by not letting the 1st Klesha, spiritual ignorance, move us into an EGO centered self we can change the story, we can open the door of our fear based closed off room and let this big beautiful, and sometimes painful life, come right in and we can greet it with open arms. Here we can be certain of our intention: I am enough, I have enough, All is Well!! One more thing, I repeated something this morning that I heard yesterday - another GOD definition - Grace over Drama!!!!!! Shift the way you tell the story of your life, drop the drama!!!!!!